I want you to know that I have been avoiding telling you my story. I’ve been afraid that you
were going to judge me, think that I’m not capable or that I am weak. The truth is that I am neither of those things, but my fear has been a bit stronger than my faith until today. The reality is that the exact thing that has been my struggle has simultaneously been my strength. It has been my dark cloud and my beacon of light all at the same time. It has challenged me to step outside of my comfort zone, to be insanely vulnerable and insanely strong. It has triggered a complete unraveling and the opportunity for growth that has been so profound that it is hard to put into words. It has required me to trust in myself, in others, in God, and in the process of life in ways I did not know were possible (I have some control freak tendencies that have been completely shattered).
The idea that my story is going to be out there for anyone to read is both terrifying and freeing all at the same time. Human nature is to judge and I wasn’t ready until now to risk it. I was too fragile before. The whole reason that I became a health coach is wrapped intricately in the fabric of my story. I always say that I won’t ask anyone to do what I am unwilling to do myself, so I guess it’s time to ante up on my truth. Read it here.